Say Whaa?!!!

Well it has been a bit since I have spoke about my non smoking.....

You will be pleased to know that it has been almost two months since my last ciggy! I know I know I am REALLY freaking cool, tell me something I don't know.... Ha! yeah well moving on.

Yup it's been almost two months I haven't pulled all my hair out, killed or maimed anyone, and I am still married, so all in all I would guess that so far things are well. truly not been easy, really it hasn't, and I hate hearing from the people who say oh its no big deal don't be so dramatic...Really? well I think all those folks who say it was "easy" can go suck it! and I think you are all liers! big fat liers! I have done my research go ask an ex heroin addict which was harder to kick, riding the "H" train or smoking? I bet you they tell you smoking. nicotine is more addictive then crack, heroin and cocaine combined its no joke people! I speakith the truth! sure I throw in anger and sarcasm for dramatic effect but its still true. Nicotine gets it's sticky icky fingers in your brain and turns you into a crazy person! who just wants to smoke! blast you cigarettes! you will not beat me dammit...in fact in my book I have already won so there! ha! suck on that!

Do you see what I mean? I use to be such a nice girl....

25 days

No cig in 25 days and I'm not even pregnant!
                  yup i'm kind of a big deal....

18 Days

It's been awhile since my last post, this would be due to the sickness the enveloped my harmonious home. But I'm happy to say everyone is on the mends. It has been 18 days since my last ciggy and surprisingly I don't feel the need to slaughter anyone or anything. I think I have reached a pinnacle here, don't get me wrong I still crave a smoke, just not quite as often....Thank god. I told myself that if I finally did it and was able to quit smoking that I would not...let me repeat that..would not become one of "those" ex-smokers. You know exactly the ones I am referring to, the ones that go on and on and on about how they don't smoke anymore and spout off all those damn horrifying statistics and try to make you feel like the gum stuck to the bottom of someones shoe...well, I will not become one of them. Now I am quite proud of myself really I am but I would be lying if I didn't say that I loved smoking, I did! there is something to be said about drinking a cold delicious brew and having a smoke. Shit it's f----ing awesome I thoroughly enjoyed it. But as you get older you start to see things a bit differently I guess. You know that smoking is bad for you, and that eventually it could or will kill you, stupid nicotine, but they had to go market it, make it look cool and get us all hooked on the goods. Truth is I don't even remember why I started smoking in the first place....knowing me it was probably just to piss someone else off... Till next time....

Day 10,

Ok well we've reached double digits and by now you may thinking oh, they must be home free now, I mean c'mon 10 days you must be on the up and up...Right? WRONG!!!!! oh so so so so WRONG! Day 10 can go suck it, I was feeling like a rockstar yesterday I wake up this morning and BAM! the nicotine train of despair came and did a hit and run on my sorry a--. you ever see a cute kid at the park on a warm sunny day eating an ice cream cone, just completely enjoying himself, not a care in the world? and then he goes in for a lick and... plop his ice cream falls right on the ground, and that awful sad little look they make without even knowing it? Today I am that sad little kid with no ice cream... just an empty angry waffle cone.

Day 8

Well the weekend was tough no question, it's amazing the reasons you find to try and smoke, like damn the dog is pissing me off I think I need to smoke or s--- the cat puked on the carpet I need to smoke, I folded all the laundry I need to smoke! see tons of reasons but if I may be serious for a moment the best reason to not smoke....

This guy right here, now I won't go getting all mushy but c'mon, is he not the cutest kid you have ever seen?!?! and for the record this is not a picture I took out of a new picture frame, this sweet, adorable, angelic creature came straight form my loins and is entirely the reason we are quitting smoking. Koen is the coolest kid I have ever met and I love watching him grow up and learn new things, it is an honor to be a parent. I would like to be a role model for my son and I think that this is certainly a step in the right direction.  

The Weekend

 "Experts" say that when quitting smoking prepare yourself for a period of "mourning", you can become so depressed and upset from not smoking that you actually feel like you have experienced a great loss....For real? okay well I admit at times I feel as though I have lost... my sanity, but do not worry I don't feel the need to go hide in a dark corner and cut my self or hurl my nicotine deprived body over a bridge or anything. So I guess on that note I must be doing pretty good? eh, how 'bout that :) Way to go me, I rule.
But for ceremonial reasons I shall take this time to say goodbye and reflect on all those special ciggies who have accompanied me over the years:

~So long cigarette with morning coffee, you always hit the spot.

~Au revoir  post coitus cig, you were always my favorite.

~Adios, "I've done a good amount of my to do list now I can go have a smoke ciggy", you always felt well deserved.

~Auf Weidersehen, Beer drinking football watching cig, I think I just might miss you most of all, but I hate long good byes so that's all I'm going to say.

 ~Arrivederci, To all my other smokey smokes I know I enjoyed each and every one of you, it's been a good run thanks for hangin'... Now get the hell out before I change my damn mind!

Friday January 14th, 2011

Day 5,

That about sums it up.