Monday January 10th, 2011

Day 1,
My day has started the same as any other day, head down stairs to get my morning cup of joe but.....oh now wait a minute! hold the phone! this is nothing like a regular morning I have my coffee in hand but no a.m. ciggy to accompany it! oh damn! and it begins, life as I have known it shall forever be different. I have yet to decide if this is a postive change? I suppose health wise it will be...eventually, but as for now my world has began a plummet into utter darkness spiraling into fits of rage and the urge to clean like no one except a pregnant women could possibly understand. So now the key is to find coping methods....ok well normally in this type of tense situation I would have a cig but no no I can't do that. So now I must change up my normal routine and instead of having my smokey smoke time I will instead type like crazy to keep these fingers from attempting anything naughty like smoking.  I really do want to quit, do not let my sarcasm and anger fool you I am not being forced in any way, this is by all accounts my own doing....and that of my husband whom is also in this non smoking hellish limbo with me, poor guy, but hey if it's worth doing then its worth doing together so you can both share in the misery...
So we stumble down the non-smokers road to the unknown where will it lead? one can only hope it leads to a magical land where cigarettes are good for you, and that smoking them will make you look younger, thinner and create world peace, maybe in this enchanted realm I will be regarded as that of higher intelligence, and a master of Kung-Fu....ya never know?